I have had some time to consider the implications of what I will tentatively refer to as my Sticking Point.
As yet, I remain entirely unsure.
My hope is for some other obvious explanation to present itself.
Whatever I actually am, I still seem to be experiencing this world through my same perspective.
Yes, this could be an iun world, or something else.
It could be a function created for the treatment of some patient in another reality.
It could be any number of things, purposeful or otherwise.
Yet regardless of whether or not the experience I seem to be having is ultimately real, I do currently exist within it as its apparent perceiver.
So I cannot yet see or imagine any reason not to be me while here.
What I wonder now is what comes next, beyond my Sticking Point.
Do I have more to learn from Ray?
Am I supposed to become like him?
Or Bing?
Or all of them?
I sound so silly, of course, especially to myself.
Yet how else would I think?
How else would my mind respond to all that I have seen and conceived?
Everything I am writing here is only exactly what I would wonder.
If I am to continue to rely on my Method—and the cause for this world seems irrelevant in making that determination—then I must conclude that whatever else is meant to be accomplished or revealed will occur and be made known in its proper time.
I see no reason to doubt that my Method will continue to work as it always has (as far as I can tell).
I am still left with the same stack of old papers meant to represent Normal clients, none of which I can differentiate.
Memories of cases all bleed together; faces and lives are a human smudge.
No matter what or why, my time here to work is still running out.
My aim to properly assert myself into the gradual, natural workings of my Method seems as valid as ever.
That process of assertion will remain the focus of these notes, at least for now.
I cannot say at all that I am sure why any of this is happening.
Yet for all immediate intents and purposes, the “why” seems not to matter.
I do have an unshakeable sense that there is still something else missing from this whole impossible equation—something I am sure I should have considered already.
Maybe the answer will come in the form of a person—some new client I have yet to meet.
I will either know or not.
I don't know anything 